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On Having Too Many Hormones So I have been thinking that I obviously have too much time on my hands. The problem with being so young is the fact that every other second i am bombarded with the thoughts of sex, sex, other, sex, sex, rince and repeat. Adding to this issue is the unfortunate fact that i was on a steady stream of guys up until quite recently, when they all went poof. Which furthurs my frustration even more. Now that makes me sound like a slut. When in actuality I have only ever slept with 2 people. And i've done "stuff" with a few others.
But tasting the devils fruit, only makes you want it more. If I were presented with the opprotunity to just have sex with a random stranger, i more than likely would not jump in bed just to satisfy this need for that delicious apple. There's no way that I can do anything with someone if I don't like them a lot. I think thats rather tasteless, and only hurts people. Thats not to say if Hugh Jackman walked in my room, i would sit there like a clergy-man. I'm sure as hell not gonna turn that opprotunity down.
I've been talking to this guy on myspace. Adam. Now I dont even think he is that attractive, and he seems kind of strange actually. His screen name had something to do with a derranged squirrel. But hey who am I to judge people on their love for animals? For all i know, he could be a squirel, wierder things have happened. Now in my right mind I would never have given this guy a chance. There's a few reasons;
A. He does his hair. Yes I do my hair, but i am not attracted to a guy who is willing to spend that much time and money on making their hair look like a womans.
B. He says "Anywho". That is a huge no no. He left me a voicemail and said anywho. That should be an immediate end of contact if you ever hear that word escape a mans mouth.
C. He goes to the LGBT group. Don't get me wrong, i think that LGBT groups are a great place for struggeling teens to go to find support. But when you are 18 you should have some sort of direction, and being gay should not be your whole life.
Now why did I just let these things slide off my shoulder? The answers simple. Im H-O-R-N-Y. Actually i probobly just want a companion more than I want sex. But my point is that these teenage hormones are causing lapses in my judgement. I can't think clearly and im constantly distracted by disturbing/pleasurable thoughts. An orgasm lasts seconds, but the thoughts last all day every day.
Due to the fact that im trying to better myself, i'll stick to masturbating instead of trying to find someone. Its just you and your hand.
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Well today was a strange and very boring day. It was the last day before spring break so it was very boring and everyone just wanted to leave including me.
I've been taking up drawing which is actually not as hard as I initially thought, my only problem is making everything symettrical. I'll draw one side really well and the other not so well
Well I dont have anything planned for spring break so its gonna be very boring unfortunately. So idk, hopefully rent a bunch of movies, and get out of this fucking rutt. Life gets better when you see the sun in the morning.
I really dont know what to say about today.
It was a hard day and I've been rather depressed because I cant express my true feelings to anyone, or face persecution.
Though I did share with an old friend who lives in Pullman, and I really didn't get that great of a responce, and she wasn't very helpful. Which hurt. I've never really felt this way about this side of myself, and I dont know why it's hitting me now, and why I feel the need to express myself.
Im having a terrible time. I need to get out with my friends and party hard. I just need to get my mind off of everything.
It's such a hard time for me.
On a lighter note! tonight is BB9 and Chelsea is going home which saddens me sooooo much!
I love you Chelsea! you were a blast to watch and your style of how you did everything was amazing! And smoking hawt to boot! U went out with a bang and I luv ya for it! Come back for All Stars when they do it again.
Also American Idol is on tonight but idk who is leaving on that show. But i also dont really care all that much lolz.
Heres to hoping my life gets better in the morning
Cheers
- Mood:
depressed
Happy St.Patty's!!!!
*I wore green*
Okay so today was very uneventful! lolz
I pretty much got up, went to skewl, and went home, Oh oh! I did dance w/ my cuzins for like an hour flipping through sirius radio which was awsomo!
Oh and zach has been annoying me soooo much. It all started when Dayna mentioned that she is super annoyed by him and she cant stand him. So then I noticed his mannerisms two... He never shuts up!
I was talking to Amanda and he kept saying Cody Cody Cody, and I would tell him one minute Zach, but he kept on.
I cant give him 24 7 attention gawd. And he just talks all the time. But lets b positive. Hes a great person and I'll get over being annoyed by him relatively quickly.
Oh and a cherry top on my day is ..... im in trouble :( I was babysitting and a picture fell, and broke, and bella got an angel statue and broke it two, so my dad comes and starts yelling at me for being irresponsible, Go boink urself homie!
Gawd they were accidents,and im not irresponsible.... I think haha
I just want a new day to shine on! haha
Kewl pic of the day is.......
- Location:Aunts
Have you ever discovered something so amazing that it just changed your outlook on things forevor??? Im sure you have, dont lie! haha
Well about five months ago ( truthfully i have no idea how long ago) I stumbled upon
the amazing!!!!
30 Seconds to Mars :D
It's a retro, indie rock band with a bit of screamo mixed into it, which I dont usually like but frankly it works really well for them! They remind me a bit of Linkin Park but they sound completely different in a strange way, It's hard to explain lol.
And, its headed by Jared Leto, who was in one of my favorite movies ever
"Requiem of a Dream" go check it out on Hulu.com!
Generally actors and actresses dont successfully maked it on both platforms, but he does really well at both! Though ever since his music has gotten popular his acting has taken a backseat.
Now back to the music. They hold my favorite song of the year...
"The Kill"
yeah yeah sounds a lil emo, but its amazing!! Its tempo takes different textures and the singing is incredible to me. It paints pictures in my mind, which is amazing! Also the video is trippy two. lol
I wont go through all of their other songs just my favorite and least favorite....
"Hunter"
Probobly the reason I dont like this one is the fact that they say the same thing over and over and over and over again ugh, "I am the hunter". Please give me a break, im aware you're the hunter, hmmm why dont you just kill me now because im gonna get a brain anurism! :P
Everyother song they have is pure genious
They may not be the best band of all time, or even have the best music, but at this point in time, they're a breath of fresh air.
My favorite Alternative Rock band of the Year!!!
30 Seconds to Mars!!!
- Location:Music
- Mood:
accomplished
It has been way way way to long since i've written one of these! and it's definately time to update... :D
I've been pretty much great, i've made a group of friends who are pretty much great, not what I imagined but I really dont care right now haha!
Dayna- She is amazing, im soo glad I met this girl! She always cracks me up,
And she has these little sayings, like "that makes me funny". Shes pretty much awsome.
Carmen- Daynas best friend, I have sixth with her, shes soo funny and just makes me laugh all the time to!
Zach- We go together like zach and cody!! haha, he was new to and we were friends pretty quickly, hes chilln!
Amanda- Hella nice and quirky, and pretty hip haha!
Theres many more but those are my favs pretty much. Theres sooo many fake people though and they love to prey on people who are different,
So I'm very happy I met those four because they are very excepting.
Though I cannot wait until I can start taking college classes and get out of that fucking school haha!
Oh oh! I edited a pic a while back, So i'll show the unedited and the edited, which I love haha!
The unedited is aight haha
But the edited is my pride and joy!!! hahaha, it took some work but turned out to be a trippy piece of work, which is awsome!
Ima post some private entrys now so until laterz!
- Location:Home
- Mood:
crazy - Music:Janes Addiction
Well i'm back home.
I got a bunch of boxes from my mom on my visit. And Filled Aunts car to the brim!
We went shopping yesterday.
Spent 5 hours going from store to store.
It was a bunch of fun b/c my cousin was there as well as my aunt.
We ate at Chili's and had the best dessert ever!!!
Something like magma chocolate cake.
It had cookie batter in the middle and hot fudge.
Caramel spread all over. And a scoop of ice cream
We went to town on that bitch haha.
I unfortunately went over spending limit.
Oh well. Dad was okay w/ that haha
On the way back my Aunt couldn't find her wedding ring!!
She was freaking out, But I told her to just have faith.
She found it thank god!! lol
She was seriously stressed.
Today wasn't all that fun.
I woke up at 1, and was still really tired....
My cousin was here, dad was watching her.
I had her help me unpack the boxes b/c I was a bit overwhelmed. haha
Its still not done but I am for the day. lol
No reviews today maybe sometime this week...
Laterz
- Mood: tired
So today has been pretty boring...
My mom and all them r here, and It's super awkward.
Basically the short story is, that me and my mom fought a lot! to put it lightly.
I couldn't take much more so I moved in w/ my dad about a state away.
Since I've been there she hasn't attempted to contact me once :( sad.
My uncle was really really nice(he lived w/ us) though he annoyed me sometimes :P
He's a really good guy.
Brady, What can you say about a little brother... I love him but he's hella annoying!
He's great.
My mom. Idk hard to talk about.
So.... that's why today has been wierd. I don't really like to talk to her. And she's still bossing me
around even after I've left. Gawd.
I don't have a solid review today so I'll review something pretty kewl.
My family owns a resturant in Pullman,Washington.
It's called Cougar Country.
It's been around for more than thirty years, and was made by my Grandma, and Grandpa.
It's their pride and joy.
Everyone in my family has worked there at least once :P
Theres a picture at the top.
I LOVE the food! 10x better than any other fast food.
They pretty much have everything you could think of.
Fries are the best!
I give it a *****/5
And not just because it's my familys. It's just awsome!
Check it out.
TTylaterz
- Location:Pullman
- Mood: busy
Okay, So i'm pretty bored. Was supossed to hang w/ krystal but I havn't heard from her...
So I've seen two new movies this week. Well kinda new, rentals. Thought I'd give them a review.
Might be spoilers...
Okay first up is Hot Fuzz.
It was alright. I had heard that It was Hilarious and LOL funny. Though I wasn't laughing much. Staying true to his brilliance Simon Pegg (Shaun of the Dead) mixed british humor w/ bloody gore. Though it's not as action packed as Shaun of the Dead, or as funny.
The main character Nicholas Angel, gets demoted from his job and has to transfer to the country side and work as a sort of cross gaurd.
He makes a friend in dumb Nick Frost.
Eventually there are a string of murders and Nicholas wants to solve them. blah blah blah.
It was mostly story, and not a lot of cult humor. Even when it picked up in the end it was still lacking any WOW factor.
Not living up to Shaun of the Dead
***/5
Next up is a much better movie Premonition
Its a psychological thriller about a Linda Hanson(Sandra Bullock), whos life is disturbed when her husband dies in a car crash.
BUT when after coming to terms with the death, she wakes up the next morning to find him alive and well. So she thinks she's crazy.
Each alternating day he's alive then dead. And she has the chance to save him from his fate.
As it progresses you learn about their marital problems and her possible bipolar disorder.
It also toys with the idea of Faith, Fate, and Religion.
The only part I didn't like about this movie was the ending. But overall It kept me on the edge of my seat the whole time.
Not to mention Sandra Bullock is one HOT momma. 
haha
*****/5
Oh b4 I forget,
Go check out SuperBad, if you can get in, it's R
- Location:Pullman
- Mood:
bouncy
